Do You Mind?

  • Ease my mind.
  • Practice mindfulness
  • Keep in mind.
  • Mind your manners.
  • Mind the till.
  • Playing mind games.
  • On my mind
  • Mind over matter
  • My mind is racing.
  • Mind your own business.
  • Pay him no mind.
  • I don’t mind.
  • He’s got a sharp mind.
  • In my mind’s eye.
  • She has a mind of her own.

The wide and varied use of the word mind is quite something. As someone who struggles with depression and anxiety, my mind is busy, often critical, and usually worried about what other minds are thinking of me.

Close your eyes. What do you see? Is it quiet and still after the light afterimage fades? One way I can measure my anxiety or disquiet is to close my eyes to see what remains. When I’m well, the afterimage fades and what’s left is a fairly blank, calm black screen. On the other hand, when anxiety runs untamed by medication, the black screen is full of yellow symbols wiggling and wriggling. I see shapes, mathematic components, and lines that bend or undulate.

My mind signals its peace or lack thereof. If I mind it effectively, I can ease my mind. Many years of experience, though, disprove the notion of mind over matter as a means of settling an unquiet mind. When my general anxiety disorder is uncontrolled, regardless of how determined I am to slow my racing mind without the aid of a physician or medication, the jumble in my mind’s eye betrays the chaos that lies beneath.

Published by Sara, short reads

I'm a middle-aged wife and mother of two adult sons. I've been a teacher, counselor, medical transcriptionist, student teacher supervisor, substitute teacher and retail clerk. Staying home now due to fibromyalgia. Seeking purpose.

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