Seems I’ve been learning the same things for all my years. Felt like I was moving through life in a linear fashion but, looking over the posts of this blog, I found something that surprised me.
I see recurrent themes and topics, which is to be expected. Then, not too long ago, I penned a missive describing a new perspective or lesson I’d learned. Something that I was excited to know because I thought it was another of the missing pieces to this puzzle I’m trying to complete. I’m certain, each time, that this is the wisdom that brings everything into focus, ushers in healing, and transports me to a place with no depression or anxiety and with a clear purpose. (Because there is such a place, right?)
Scanning past titles to prevent duplication before I published, I did see a couple similar to what I’d been thinking for this latest. When I opened the first and read, not only was the heading familiar; it was the same damn lesson! And you know already, the other document in question was nearly a copy the others.
I started this blog in late December of 2019. 19 months ago. Apparently, I’ve been amazed to learn the same lesson, as though it was novel thinking for me, three times or maybe more. In 19 months. I get that in the beginning my cognitive abilities were impaired by suicidal depression, but surely I would have an idea imprinted somewhere in my brain and recall at least a notion.
Now that I think about it, I’ve taken 56 trips around the sun. What are the chances of having a truly original idea? I’ll continue to celebrate when my mind contributes encouragement but maybe not go straight to the press, WordPress that is. 😉 I imagine you who have read this blog smiling and wondering how many times I could write the same thing a different way with equal excitement!