Insomnia. Not just sleep interrupted by trips to the kitchen or bathroom, now I’m talking about hours tossing and turning, in addition to waking up for the day at 4 or 5 am for no particular reason. As many as three naps a day does not even things out, maybe even more discombobulated upon waking.Continue reading “Tonight Will Be Better”
Seems I’ve been learning the same things for all my years. Felt like I was moving through life in a linear fashion but, looking over the posts of this blog, I found something that surprised me. I see recurrent themes and topics, which is to be expected. Then, not too long ago, I penned aContinue reading “Circle Back”
When I read this, my anxiety rises. My head knows it is beautiful and I breathe, knowing it should feel good to revisit. Instead, I see a list of characteristics and rate my performance on each in the back of my mind, not comparing myself to others but judging against an ideal. The first hitContinue reading “The Nature of My Insecurity”
Recovering from a dark day, I wanted to share that in the midst of my sorrow, the 100th person followed my blog. This is something I’ve been looking forward to since the 85th. 101 and 102 have followed too. This was a light for me yesterday and I’m very grateful.
Without leaving my house, over the past few months, I’ve visited several countries. It’s so interesting to see the landscape, culture, and social norms in other places. I’m interested in the various housing designs and seeing towns and cities I’ve heard about but don’t plan to see in person. There are many series and moviesContinue reading “Travels During the Virus”
In a recent post, I lamented that pictures seem to disappear from my posts. I spent hours making sure I only had free pics in my published posts. (I might have found and used unauthorized pics I found online.) I gave it a couple days, and photos were still being replaced by a message aboutContinue reading “Sometimes I just have to shake my head at myself”
So fricking pissed. When writing a post, I like to add a picture that ties in. I’ve been using Pixel Free pics but after a couple/few days, the picture is down and replaced with a message regarding a lack of attributes. Now, I’m not tech adept in the best of circumstances, but right now, I’mContinue reading “Irritated and Foggy”
😁 I started this blog as a way to explore and document my experiences as I recovered from the worst major depressive episode I’ve had. The most detailed description of this time, as well as my previous history with clinical depression, can be found on the page “Chapters of My Life.” I’m so relieved toContinue reading “Good Days”
I’ve decided to do all of my writing as blog posts, rather than using “Chapters of My Life” for longer passages, thinking it’s probably harder to follow and find specific topics. I’m open to feedback on this.
I’ve never followed a blog or even checked one out. I thought about doing that before I started mine, but then decided to just plow ahead. I’ve also started this blog in a notebook to be published online later. This gives me time to think twice before posting or considering whether or not I shouldContinue reading “Journal Day 4 12/6/19”