I worry that I’m not strong enough in the face of chronic pain and illness because I’m no longer working and haven’t been walking or doing yoga. Tightening my core muscles for more than a few minutes or walking less than a hundred yards causes my back muscles to spasm in a way I describe as “seizing up.” Burning, gripping pain.
But you know what? It just occurred to me that some days it takes a lot of strength just to go through each painful moment of the day. This is such a day. (written 8/28/21)