Declaration of Peace

The cease fire of the armed conflict with myself outlines mutually agreed upon obligations. Both parties consent to: Disarmament to include insults, both real and imagined, self-doubt, pessimistic outlook, and any other efforts to injure. Revisiting the past will focus only on positive memories. Negative events are deleted and no longer available for review. BreathingContinue reading “Declaration of Peace”

The Purpose of Life

Purpose (def): the reason for which something is done or created or for which something exists. Purpose creates meaning, offers a sense of direction and helps guide our paths, behavior, and goals. Purpose according to Google: Live and let live. (I think it’s hilarious that one can ask google what the purpose of life is,Continue reading “The Purpose of Life”

A New Way

My earliest desperate search for a life purpose or meaning, for which I could do great things, repeatedly and resoundingly hit a brick wall. The graffiti on that wall said, “breathe.” It took me a few years to understand that I actually had received my answer. All I needed to do was breathe. No bigContinue reading “A New Way”

Downshifting

For decades, I’ve been in overdrive. Go, go, go. Career in the early days, babies and books for my husband’s small business, working from home and raising up two boys, and then part-time work. My mom asked me once if I ever relaxed. Admittedly, I have a terrible time unwinding mentally and physically. Here IContinue reading “Downshifting”

So Damned Tired

Fibromyalgia 101 Recently, one of my doctors remarked that, because I have an autoimmune disorder, I’ll need to really look into the COVID vaccine before I get it. My response? “So, you do consider fibromyalgia an autoimmune disorder?” She said, “Yes, it’s an autoimmune disorder.” Over the years, I’ve heard no one knows what causesContinue reading “So Damned Tired”

Hope This Finds You Well

In recent weeks, both of my young adult sons have, separately, encouraged me to begin walking regularly, sure that’s all I need to feel better. I agree with them that walking routinely would be helpful and it is a goal, but it’s not the cure. If I’m having a good day, I can handle stairsContinue reading “Hope This Finds You Well”

Mixed Up World of Fibromyalgia

I have a few post fragments in my head but pain has been significant recently and I’m not concentrating well. I mentioned a few posts ago that I have had the diagnosis of fibromyalgia for 11 years but feel like I’m just now truly accepting the big picture of fibro and adjusting my behaviors thatContinue reading “Mixed Up World of Fibromyalgia”

Comfort in Numbers

It was, at once, both relieving and a bit surprising when I learned yesterday that people with a diagnosis of fibromyalgia are 10 times more likely to commit suicide than the general population and almost three times more likely than other chronic pain patients. (Pain News Network) It’s perverse, but it helps to know I’mContinue reading “Comfort in Numbers”

Dancing Glances

I’m experiencing glancing pain all over my body with intermittent aches. It’s such a strange feeling, thought I’d try to describe it. There is a burning type of pain, some muscle aches and spasms, and stingers. They travel, lighting up different areas very quickly. First a pain on top of my left ankle, an acheContinue reading “Dancing Glances”

Losing My Head

After tossing and turning all night, in addition to stress eating, I woke fatigued. The headache and nausea that’ve been around for about a week were present, but the dizziness and motion sickness had subsided. As I moved around, my head started spinning. When my husband asked how I was doing and I indicated thingsContinue reading “Losing My Head”

Oh, Happy Day!

A visit to my chiropractor and a day of rest, my body has responded well. Not apprehensive about working a full shift today. I do wear really good shoes with orthotic inserts. So glad I won’t have to be faking it when customers ask how I’m doing, which they do in surprisingly high numbers. 😃Continue reading “Oh, Happy Day!”

Living with Chronic Pain

The first clue that my back pain was going to be something to deal with long-term, aside from my doctor realizing my legs were different lengths, was at the physical therapy office. At age 16, standing 5’9″ and weighing 103 pounds, the therapist traced both sides of my spine with marker, and then he startedContinue reading “Living with Chronic Pain”