Plans, goals, attitude, expectations. Pep talk to self in an effort to spur motivation and commitment. Judging my daily abilities against an aspirational mental picture. Comparing achievements of others with my own sad state of affairs. Suspiciously evaluating my behaviors, or lack thereof, for honest effort versus laziness. And then, I spend a terribly painfulContinue reading “And Then…”
Tag Archives: Pain
This or That?
In any given circumstance, the only thing we can actually control is our perspective. Any person can view a rainy day as gloomy, considering it bad weather, or embrace the chance to curl up and binge watch a new series. Mostly stuck in bed with chronic pain, fatigue, and illness, I’m experiencing great difficulty changingContinue reading “This or That?”
Accept This
You know, the part of the Serenity Prayer about “grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change”? Many current circumstances provide opportunities to practice. I am endeavoring to accept these situations as they are: Pandemic Isolation Distance holidays Presidential transition Changes in plans as virus goes viral Fibromyalgia Chronic pain There areContinue reading “Accept This”
How Long?
When every day is painful and difficult, how many years of that do you owe to the people who love you before you choose to be done struggling, knowing full well that the pain and difficulty will then transfer to your family and friends. What is strong? You hear people say sometimes, “Oh, she wasContinue reading “How Long?”
The Fibro Ride
As tempted as I am to analogize living with fibromyalgia to the ups and downs of a rollercoaster ride, more ups would be required. It’s more like a ferris wheel. Eleven years after the onset and eight since the first of three diagnoses, I think I may be accepting that I am living with chronicContinue reading “The Fibro Ride”
Sorry
However well-laid my plans or adept my ability to delude myself about having some measure of control in this life, many days do not follow the course as mapped out the night before. I wrote the paragraph above this morning at about 11 am. It is now 4 o’clock and I just sent this textContinue reading “Sorry”
What a fibromyalgia episode feels like for me
I don’t intend this to be a whiny post, but the fact that I would need to clarify that lets you know it’s probably going to sound whiny. I’m experiencing the most severe symptoms I’ve had in a long time. Thank God. It’s actually been one of my longest breaks between serious flare ups. MyContinue reading “What a fibromyalgia episode feels like for me”
