SurvivingSara

Tag: blogging

  • FREEDOM

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    Sitting in my backyard hot tub this morning, a flashy magpie’s bright white body caught my eye, very high up in one of a neighbor’s pinetrees, as the bird hopped in a circle, flashing its beautiful black and blue wings and tailfeathers while making a fair amount of noise. Next to it, in a branch…

  • What’s Up, Doc?

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    All right, readers; I’m going to do my best to to write about anything except fibromyalgia, depression, or suicide in the coming weeks. Those that follow along will know I’ve been preoccupied with an unsuccessful medication switch and return to original. Back to where I was at the beginning of September, I’ll appreciate the pain…

  • The Nitty Gritty

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    Tiny news items: Twenty years I’ve called this house my home. Today, I was puzzled by the mechanism of the front window vertical blinds. It took several minutes to achieve the desired effect. A longer pause than usual spent catching the word that’s just there, on the tip of my tongue, can be explained away,…

  • Unexpected

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    If I blog about not blogging, am I an oxymoron? Doing this post just so I could use that line, not gonna lie. Chronic pain and illness are partially, if not wholly, responsible for the completely blank and arid condition of my brain. I recognize that this time of year is kind of a lull…

  • Write Out

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    It seems as though we will have a white Christmas in my neck of the woods. My illness and pain are causing a white out in my brain. Tried to begin writing a PAV (Parent is Also a Verb) post but I’m unable and nothing else pops into mind. One of these days.

  • Tonight Will Be Better

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    Insomnia. Not just sleep interrupted by trips to the kitchen or bathroom, now I’m talking about hours tossing and turning, in addition to waking up for the day at 4 or 5 am for no particular reason. As many as three naps a day does not even things out, maybe even more discombobulated upon waking.…

  • Circle Back

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    Seems I’ve been learning the same things for all my years. Felt like I was moving through life in a linear fashion but, looking over the posts of this blog, I found something that surprised me. I see recurrent themes and topics, which is to be expected. Then, not too long ago, I penned a…

  • The Nature of My Insecurity

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    When I read this, my anxiety rises. My head knows it is beautiful and I breathe, knowing it should feel good to revisit. Instead, I see a list of characteristics and rate my performance on each in the back of my mind, not comparing myself to others but judging against an ideal. The first hit…

  • 100+ Blessings

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    Recovering from a dark day, I wanted to share that in the midst of my sorrow, the 100th person followed my blog. This is something I’ve been looking forward to since the 85th. 101 and 102 have followed too. This was a light for me yesterday and I’m very grateful.

  • Travels During the Virus

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    Without leaving my house, over the past few months, I’ve visited several countries. It’s so interesting to see the landscape, culture, and social norms in other places. I’m interested in the various housing designs and seeing towns and cities I’ve heard about but don’t plan to see in person. There are many series and movies…

  • Sometimes I just have to shake my head at myself

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    In a recent post, I lamented that pictures seem to disappear from my posts. I spent hours making sure I only had free pics in my published posts. (I might have found and used unauthorized pics I found online.) I gave it a couple days, and photos were still being replaced by a message about…

  • Irritated and Foggy

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    So fricking pissed. When writing a post, I like to add a picture that ties in. I’ve been using Pixel Free pics but after a couple/few days, the picture is down and replaced with a message regarding a lack of attributes. Now, I’m not tech adept in the best of circumstances, but right now, I’m…

  • Good Days

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    😁 I started this blog as a way to explore and document my experiences as I recovered from the worst major depressive episode I’ve had. The most detailed description of this time, as well as my previous history with clinical depression, can be found on the page “Chapters of My Life.” I’m so relieved to…

  • Blogging

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    I’ve decided to do all of my writing as blog posts, rather than using “Chapters of My Life” for longer passages, thinking it’s probably harder to follow and find specific topics. I’m open to feedback on this.

  • Journal Day 4 12/6/19

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    I’ve never followed a blog or even checked one out. I thought about doing that before I started mine, but then decided to just plow ahead. I’ve also started this blog in a notebook to be published online later. This gives me time to think twice before posting or considering whether or not I should…