zerotohero – SurvivingSara

Independence

After graduating from college with a Bachelor’s degree in education, in June of 1986, I interviewed with a few small school districts in the area. One interview panel asked if I would move to their little town or if I’d commute from my hometown, a much bigger city of about 300,000. I answered, “Oh, IContinue reading “Independence”

Journal 12/18

I feel shaky and nervous. I met with Dr. Liz last week for an emergency visit because after initially feeling like I was getting a bit better every day, I found myself in a panic that I no longer had the suicide plan I’d put together. I’d had to hand it over to my husband.Continue reading “Journal 12/18”

Journal Day 3

I feel relaxed for the first time in a very long time after five days of bed rest. I have to resist the urge to begin doing, planning, and worrying about what comes next. I’ve thought about suicide more times than I could ever recall. It’s one of the symptoms I get when my depressionContinue reading “Journal Day 3”

Journal Day 2

I have an illness, have had for about 25 years. It goes into remission but recurs at the worst of times. The illness is depression with a side of anxiety. If you’ve experienced either of these, it’s my hope you find company, understanding, encouragement, maybe something to hold on to. If you love or areContinue reading “Journal Day 2”