SurvivingSara

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  • Independence

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    After graduating from college with a Bachelor’s degree in education, in June of 1986, I interviewed with a few small school districts in the area. One interview panel asked if I would move to their little town or if I’d commute from my hometown, a much bigger city of about 300,000. I answered, “Oh, I…

  • Journal 12/18

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    I feel shaky and nervous. I met with Dr. Liz last week for an emergency visit because after initially feeling like I was getting a bit better every day, I found myself in a panic that I no longer had the suicide plan I’d put together. I’d had to hand it over to my husband.…

  • Journal Day 3

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    I feel relaxed for the first time in a very long time after five days of bed rest. I have to resist the urge to begin doing, planning, and worrying about what comes next. I’ve thought about suicide more times than I could ever recall. It’s one of the symptoms I get when my depression…

  • Journal Day 2

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    I have an illness, have had for about 25 years. It goes into remission but recurs at the worst of times. The illness is depression with a side of anxiety. If you’ve experienced either of these, it’s my hope you find company, understanding, encouragement, maybe something to hold on to. If you love or are…