hope – SurvivingSara

Passion

What is my passion? In reading articles regarding developing a personal purpose, some recommend having a purpose that involves an individual’s passion. Maybe my passion is wanting to figure out a life purpose that doesn’t require much change on my part. 😉 Things I’m pondering in relation to identifying passion and purpose: Do I needContinue reading “Passion”

Refining Fire

For the life of me, when Anthony Scaramucci and Michael Cohen warned that DJT would burn everything to the ground if he wasn’t reelected, I considered it hyperbolic. Irrespective of the numerous opportunities I’ve had to learn not to underestimate the depths of DJT’s pathological narcissism, for some completely unsupported reason I once again thought,Continue reading “Refining Fire”

One Year Later – Hope

I just passed the one year mark of the day I wrote a suicide note and purchased the supplies necessary to carry out my plan the next day, the Monday before Thanksgiving. I thought about it briefly, seated at our holiday table a few days ago, with my husband and two grown sons, but madeContinue reading “One Year Later – Hope”

Aaaahh

That’s not really me, but I’d love to be there. I am feeling pretty relaxed for the first time in a long while. Very low pain level today in just a few spots. I’ve been spending a lot of time learning about fibromyalgia. Although it has rolled off the tip of my tongue for years,Continue reading “Aaaahh”

Comfort in Numbers

It was, at once, both relieving and a bit surprising when I learned yesterday that people with a diagnosis of fibromyalgia are 10 times more likely to commit suicide than the general population and almost three times more likely than other chronic pain patients. (Pain News Network) It’s perverse, but it helps to know I’mContinue reading “Comfort in Numbers”

Oh, Happy Day!

A visit to my chiropractor and a day of rest, my body has responded well. Not apprehensive about working a full shift today. I do wear really good shoes with orthotic inserts. So glad I won’t have to be faking it when customers ask how I’m doing, which they do in surprisingly high numbers. 😃Continue reading “Oh, Happy Day!”

Good Days

😁 I started this blog as a way to explore and document my experiences as I recovered from the worst major depressive episode I’ve had. The most detailed description of this time, as well as my previous history with clinical depression, can be found on the page “Chapters of My Life.” I’m so relieved toContinue reading “Good Days”

Relief

Although I’m still incredibly fatigued and continue to cough, I do think my mood is improving. I was very scared that I was sinking again, having trouble keeping my head above water. Being seriously sick definitely complicates healing from depression. My concern now is avoiding additional viral or bacterial illness while my immune system isContinue reading “Relief”

Journal 1/15

I feel rested. I’m not tearful. I’m grateful for a sunny, blue sky. I am hopeful but nervous. This has been such a rollercoaster ride.

Journal Day 2

I have an illness, have had for about 25 years. It goes into remission but recurs at the worst of times. The illness is depression with a side of anxiety. If you’ve experienced either of these, it’s my hope you find company, understanding, encouragement, maybe something to hold on to. If you love or areContinue reading “Journal Day 2”