Oh, That River In Egypt

When cold winter and spring weather gave way to warmer temperatures, I found the clothes ascribed for summer were tight. Hmmm My husband noted an increase in the size of my mammary glands, and he wasn’t complaining. Interesting. My stomach no longer went flat if I was lying down. It stayed pooched up. Weird. InContinue reading “Oh, That River In Egypt”

It’s as Beautiful or as Terrible as You Make It

What do I fear? What kind of energy am I holding inside? Instead of racing around in my head, I want to choose peace. Healing and calm CAN replace negative, toxic thoughts and emotions. This initially fills me with anxiety, as I internalize the message, “Your wellness is your responsibility. If you were good atContinue reading “It’s as Beautiful or as Terrible as You Make It”

Tonight Will Be Better

Insomnia. Not just sleep interrupted by trips to the kitchen or bathroom, now I’m talking about hours tossing and turning, in addition to waking up for the day at 4 or 5 am for no particular reason. As many as three naps a day does not even things out, maybe even more discombobulated upon waking.Continue reading “Tonight Will Be Better”

Dr. Google

Dr. Google is an alarmist. I knew this but I went back to see him because he’s so available to patients. No appointment, no answering service or on-call partners. I don’t have to sit in a waiting room full of sick people. No risk of COVID. And he provides diagnoses galore. Pick one! Don’t likeContinue reading “Dr. Google”

Unbelievable

I’m confused and pissed off. I just figured out ON MY OWN that I have chronic kidney disease, moderate to severe. Those words have never been said to me by a medical professional. What the fuck? Really! (please see following post, “Dr. Google.”) A few weeks ago, I saw a pharmacotherapist who went over myContinue reading “Unbelievable”

It’s only 20 pounds

When I crossed the stage to receive my high school diploma, I stood 5’9″ and weighed about 110 pounds. I was able to eat as much as I wanted and not gain weight. I expected to be effortlessly thin all my life. Freshman year in college, my metabolism slowed down some. If I paid anyContinue reading “It’s only 20 pounds”

Learning Curve

I have a post in my head but I’m too tired. Great website regarding fibromyalgia- Counting My Spoons. I’ve avoided reading stuff about fibromyalgia for years. Good insights and perspective. Going to address what I can through behavioral changes. Things I want to work on include: Pacing No excuses or apologies Listen to my bodyContinue reading “Learning Curve”