SurvivingSara

Tag: fibromyalgia

  • Comfort in Numbers

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    It was, at once, both relieving and a bit surprising when I learned yesterday that people with a diagnosis of fibromyalgia are 10 times more likely to commit suicide than the general population and almost three times more likely than other chronic pain patients. (Pain News Network) It’s perverse, but it helps to know I’m…

  • In My Brain

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    Not sure this one will get published. May remain in draft limbo. My mind is not being very nice to me today. I was cleaning pine needles and weeds out of my succulent garden; and, out of nowhere, my brain started in, “You are the odd one. After you’ve been with people, they all agree…

  • The Fibro Ride

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    As tempted as I am to analogize living with fibromyalgia to the ups and downs of a rollercoaster ride, more ups would be required. It’s more like a ferris wheel. Eleven years after the onset and eight since the first of three diagnoses, I think I may be accepting that I am living with chronic…

  • Dancing Glances

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    I’m experiencing glancing pain all over my body with intermittent aches. It’s such a strange feeling, thought I’d try to describe it. There is a burning type of pain, some muscle aches and spasms, and stingers. They travel, lighting up different areas very quickly. First a pain on top of my left ankle, an ache…

  • Simmering

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    The fatigue covers me like a warm blanket. It’s a sleepy tiredness. I didn’t wake up until 11 o’clock today, and two hours later I could nap. My husband and I took the dogs for a good, 40-minute walk for the first time in ages. I was hoping for the whole, “A body in motion,…

  • Losing My Head

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    After tossing and turning all night, in addition to stress eating, I woke fatigued. The headache and nausea that’ve been around for about a week were present, but the dizziness and motion sickness had subsided. As I moved around, my head started spinning. When my husband asked how I was doing and I indicated things…

  • Trifecta

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    I hit the stay-home trifecta today – showered, makeup, and real (street worthy) clothing! I planned to bake zucchini bread, put together a lasagna, vacuum, and wipe down handles and faucets for the umpteenth time. My husband is working from home today, and the dining room table is his desk with two monitors, paperwork etc.…

  • It Is What It Is

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    Started with a new doctor this week. As she palpated my neck and shoulders, she said, ” You need a massage.” I replied, “I had one yesterday.” The look on her face! That’s fibromyalgia. I wore a corset of pain around my ribcage for a day. That’s fibromyalgia. Today I had to leave work after…

  • Oh, Happy Day!

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    A visit to my chiropractor and a day of rest, my body has responded well. Not apprehensive about working a full shift today. I do wear really good shoes with orthotic inserts. So glad I won’t have to be faking it when customers ask how I’m doing, which they do in surprisingly high numbers. 😃…

  • A Wreck

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    When my mom asked where my pain is, my answer was lengthy. After a bit she texted, asking if I’d been in a wreck. I told her it sure feels like I’ve been in a wreck but it was just a session in the dental chair. I made it through the whole shift today, which…

  • Day 2 Fibromyalgia flare

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    Upon waking this a.m., my ribs and sternum hurt badly; it hurts to breathe. I have pain in my shoulders, wrists, and temples. I probably smell like a drugstore because my husband covered my back with mentholated CBD cream and I’ve applied it to my abdomen, ribs, sternum, jaws and temples. My husband helps me…

  • What a fibromyalgia episode feels like for me

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    I don’t intend this to be a whiny post, but the fact that I would need to clarify that lets you know it’s probably going to sound whiny. I’m experiencing the most severe symptoms I’ve had in a long time. Thank God. It’s actually been one of my longest breaks between serious flare ups. My…

  • Living with Chronic Pain

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    The first clue that my back pain was going to be something to deal with long-term, aside from my doctor realizing my legs were different lengths, was at the physical therapy office. At age 16, standing 5’9″ and weighing 103 pounds, the therapist traced both sides of my spine with marker, and then he started…